Our Diagnosis Day

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Why?

I am no expert on Diabetes. And I didn't create this blog to give information on the disease. There are books, websites, pamphlets, print outs, magazines, diabetic educators, doctors and your mailman's aunt for all the diabetic education you and I will need. And if you are anything like me, I was so overloaded with diabetic information right after diagnosis, I didn't think I had room left in my brain for any other concept. So this blog is not for the medical search. It's for the soul search.

How are you holding up? Really? Be honest.

Have you asked 'why' yet? It's okay if you have. I think we all do. The closet thing I've come to for an answer is a trust in a God who has our lives planned and orchestrated. I keep reminding myself of the scripture (in fact I have it written and taped on our bathroom mirror) Psalm 139:16 "Your eyes saw me when I was formless; all (my) days were written in Your book and planned before a single one of them began." This diagnosis wasn't a surprise to God, although it was to me. So, I rest in His knowledge. I look at Gloria and realize that nothing of my own power picked her out and created her. It was God who knit her in my womb. And it is God who loves her beyond what even this mother's heart can love her with. I know it's a clich'e phrase, "God has a plan for your life" but if you dig beneath that flippant phrase and dwell on the reality it has in your child's life, you might begin to stand in awe. When I started to dwell on that reality, I began to see what God was weaving directly into our daughter's life and ours as well. I could see strands of strength, courage, responsibility and perseverence fastening themselves where I thought they once existed. How vivid and tangible those attributes are with diabetes intertwined.

So, I encourage you to put the "why" off for a second and go over to your child and take them up in your arms, if you can. Look them over. Smell their hair. Look into their eyes. Take them in close to your heart and then, silently thank God for the priveledge of being asked to take care of them.

You can do this. You really can.

2 comments:

  1. Hi Angela~ My husband Sean talked to Troy and he told me about Gloria. You are so right about how what happens to our children is no suprise to God and he has thier lives planned out. Excepting what He has planned for them is hard on us at times. I'm praying for you, Troy, and Gloria. God is leading you in this journey as you know. Thank you for the reminder that God is in control and he has planned our childrens lives.
    Kim Sellers

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  2. Your wise words are encouraging to the mothers who aren't dealing with this sickness, rather every day life as a mom. I'm in prayer for you!
    Carey Anzelini

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